Kitchenability Blog

06.20.2016

Hey, New Moms! What Do You Miss Most?

Nisa and Eleanor

I’m sitting here, reminiscing about what life was like before a baby — thinking about all the Sunday afternoons I spent at breweries, spending money I probably didn’t have to begin with. Now, my Sundays involve sitting upstairs on a gorgeous day nursing an infant for the hundredth time.

Lately, it’s been really hard not being able to leave the house. You kind of start to feel trapped.

Let’s not sugarcoat this — it’s not easy stepping into the new world of parenthood. No one prepares you, and no one tells you how hard it will really be. It is one of the hardest things I’ve ever done, and will do, and one of the best things, all at the same time. 

When I do leave the house, it’s literally a time slot figuring out how long I have until my milk decides to come in. Then, I’m hot and sweaty, because when your milk comes in, it’s like a heat wave overtaking your body, and unless you’ve ever experienced it, I can’t really explain it. Think about a water balloon filling to its breaking point with warm water. And, it doesn’t help that it’s 90° here on top of that. The best part is you leak, too! Yay!!! But, it’s all for baby, and worth it. It really is. I promise! It sounds crazy, but it is.

Now, my baby-less outings are focused on the fact that I don’t have her nearby to relieve my engorged, hot boobs. Then, on top of that, I’m still sore from pushing her out of me, and still have postpartum bleeding. Seriously, when does that end?! Pad after pad… I am basically just buying time being out without my pump, or my daughter, and god forbid I forget a pad! Toilet paper any one? 

So, my Sunday afternoon reminiscing about sitting at a patio table on a nice, hot summer day, sipping beer, and playing corn hole, has a whole new meaning now. I love my new Sundays, it’s just a different love. I went 10 months without any booze, and now I still have to be careful — being a life source for another human is a lot of work.  

Sitting at home does get lonely. It is hard to feel that all you have done all day is nurse, and then you smell weird… Is that spit up on your already-stained PJ top? Or is that poop?

Then, my daughter smiles and that’s the best feeling in the world. I laugh, and smile back at her.

We all miss the little things that filled our joy before babies, like a brewery, but my heart is filled with a love that is bigger and better now.

It’s not easy being a first-time mom. I’ve made some mistakes, and, yeah, is saying I miss sitting outside at a brewery having a few beers wrong? I don’t know, probably not, and hate me if you think so, but most moms probably have thought it too. I love my new little family. I love what life has blessed me with. It’s just that on the days that are really hard, a beer and a patio table all to myself would be nice. 

What do you miss most? A hot shower? A mani-pedi? Let’s be honest moms. I’d love to hear from you!

Photo: Dragon Photo Studio

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *